January 20, 2010

Jesus Christ Is Sovereign Over Breast Cancer

Posted in Poetry, Prayer Request, Update tagged , , , , , , , , at 11:00 pm by Sarah Bosse

You never seem to believe it’s possible it could happen in your family until, well…it happens. But once it’s here, it seems like it will always be here and never fully gone. I’m talking about cancer. On January 5th, 2010, my Mom was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. It took me by shock and I wasn’t quite sure what to say when I got the call. I just prayed and didn’t tell anyone for a few days…just trying to process it in my mind. Then I spoke with a woman who has battled cancer several times. She said, “Just hate it for your family that the big C has entered your life but …we have a “C” in our lives that is supreme to cancer.”

Jesus Christ Is Sovereign Over Breast Cancer - by Sarah M. Bosse

Jesus Christ Is Sovereign Over Breast Cancer - by Sarah M. Bosse

What this woman said has been rolling around in my brain for a few weeks now (it’s only been two weeks but it already feels like several months since that phone call).   As I thought about her words, I created the picture posted here with word art and breast cancer awareness ribbons.  She spoke such a simple exhortation, but it really affected me and encouraged me to “look up and see [my] Savior raised”. He has triumphed over the grave and holds the keys of life and death.

John 1:1-5a

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 The same was in the beginning with God. 3 All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made. 4 In him was life; and the life was the light of men. 5 And the light shineth in darkness….


Please join me in praying for my Mom.  Mom has confessed and believes in God’s sovereignty over her cancer.  At times like this, when life gets hard and gritty, the perfect pairing of God’s sovereignty with His love constitutes the balm that soothes the aching soul.  Pray for God’s closeness during this season and for His mercy during surgery, chemotherapy, and healing.  I am praying that God will strengthen Mom so that she is a strong witness to the awesome power of God working through our weaknesses and that many people will see a living sacrifice of a life well-lived for God and respond in praise to Him for all that He has done.

My family thanks you for your prayers.

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Sarah M. Bosse

January 6, 2010

Haven’t Written Much Lately

Posted in Development, Prayer Request, Update tagged , , , , , , , , , at 6:28 pm by Sarah Bosse

To those who actually keep up with my blog, I apologize! I haven’t written much lately, especially in the last two months or so. Please forgive me. Here are some things you can be praying for, for me:

* That a very close friend of mine who has cancer would endure and avail herself of God’s strength.
* That my brother’s upcoming wedding will go well and I’ll be prepared to play (flute) and the pianist will be ready too (she has a hand injury at a bad time!).
* That God would grow me in God-likeness so that my life is a pleasing sacrifice to my Maker.
* That I would get more hours of work and be able to begin working from home (quickly).
* That God would continue to help me use my time wisely during the day to His glory, that I would gladly accept the help He provides, and that I would take more delight in obedience.
* That I would endure and seek the Lord both during times of pain/discomfort and during times of ease, so that in all situations, my heart would be drawn to Him.

I hope to get back to writing devotionals, music, poetry, and all the rest soon. But it will probably be after the middle of January (after my brother’s wedding). Thanks for both your patience and prayers!! Maybe I’ll take a few minutes to throw ya’ll a bone (i.e. a short blog post besides this one). 🙂

Sarah M. Bosse

March 3, 2009

Starting with Simple Thanks

Posted in Devotionals, Prayer Request, Stories, Update at 12:26 am by Sarah Bosse

Sometimes it is hard to be grateful and to thank God.  In my heart and mind, I’m a complainer – I always see things lacking and note ways they can be “improved” (or so I think!).  But God desires to exercise our hearts and minds and bend them toward thanksgiving.  So I try to pick out one or two things each day and thank God for those things.  I pick different things each day; I often start off small.  

“Thank you, Lord, for heat in my home.  And thank you for a car that runs so I can get to work.”  

I start off with the physical.  And after a while, I find that my mind goes beyond the physical and I’m drawn to think of the spiritual blessings I have in Christ.  

“Thank you, Lord, for my salvation!  Thank you for the strength that you have given me today to resist temptation.”  

Today’s thanksgivings are simple, but I wanted to share them with you.  I wish I could give a big hug and lots of thanks to everyone who has prayed for me!  Today was an incredible day.  I had a good interview with a family for whom I may soon be providing CAP services.  And God gave me such a joy today when working with my current CAP client.  I see God’s grace in this boy’s life and I watch him mature and grow daily.  Today was a reminder of why I love being a CAP worker!  

Equally wonderful today was God’s blessing on my body.  Today is the first day since sometime in November that I feel rather “normal” – meaning, I don’t have (at very least) annoying or very bad pain in my back, legs, or other parts of my body…or other health problems.  I had a few zaps of sciatica and a little back pain a few times during the day, but other than that, I have felt really good today.  My energy to get through the day lasted me all day!  I know that I am blessed and I feel God’s kindness to me.  To God be the glory!  

You see, I do not deserve to be free of pain.  Don’t take this lightly!  I do not say it lightly!  Hear the full weight and meaning of what I’ve just said.  Imagine it.  I often live with chronic pain day and night.  It feels like my body is being eaten away from the inside out and falling apart most days.  That is no exaggeration.  But in my sin, I deserve to be cast into Hell.  I deserve to do backstrokes in the Lake of Fire.  I deserve the punnishment that Jesus took upon Himself – to be spat upon, beaten until unrecognizable, staked to a tree, a crown of thorns causing a fresh stream of blood to run down, forsaken by friends and by God, poured out as a drink offering and broken as a burnt offering.  No anguish, no grief, no sorrow could ever be compared to that of my Lord and Savior! – NONE!  

Hallelujah – I am free, for the Lamb has borne it all for me!  And because He was stricken for me, died for me, and was raised to newness of life, I too can be raised with Him!  What could be better?  THERE IS NO BETTER NEWS TO THIS POOR SINNER’S EAR!  I am FORGIVEN and LOVED by GOD!

As I said, I do not deserve to be free of either earthly pain or eternal pain and suffering of every sort.  But because the requirements of God’s perfect Justice were met in Christ, God’s uncontainable Mercy flows over me through Christ so that I will never bear the punishment for my sin.  Instead, I have received Grace – and Grace Abounding!!  I must be the richest of all mankind, or so I feel!  Because Jesus is my joy, my peace, my all!  

For any relief of any pain I receive while on this earth, and for all joy and goodness I will experience in the presence of Christ both on this earth and in Heaven, I give all glory and praise to God my Father!  He alone is worthy!

TGG

January 2, 2009

Lighter Moments – PUMPING the IRONy

Posted in Stories, Update at 2:02 am by Sarah Bosse

Getting exercise when I’m not supposed to be putting much weight into my legs is not easy.  When my arms are double-tasking, I get a great upperbody workout!  But everything south suffers.  Atrophy is one of my most HATED words, and I spend considerable thought energy in finding ways to battle against it.  

 

 

Pedal Exerciser

Tonight, I sat in my kitchen with my little pedal exerciser, pedaled my little heart away – forwards, backwards, forwards, backwards –  and went nowhere.  Gratefully, though my pedal exerciser wasn’t going to help me get to the grocery store, my imagination took over enough to fill in what was missing.  I had just finished dinner, so my plate and other dinner artifiacts still covered the table.  My imagination took off and I became Lance Armstrong in le Tour de France, fighting up mountainous inclines, sweat pouring down my forehead, my lean and toned figure perched gracefully on my formula one bicycle, whizzing around corners and down hills at break-neck speeds.  I stuffed another Milky-Way Mint Mini into my mouth.  As I pedaled, I continued to munch on various and sundry things.  Suddenly, I became Michael Phelps in the 2008 olympics, swimming my last lap to win my second medal, hearing the astonishment in the crowd’s gasps as I come up for a breath.  I pop a starburst into my mouth and exercise my jaw while I exercise my legs.  Finally, I wonder what it must have been like to train as an astronaut for a mission to the moon.  They must be in peak physical condition before they can go on a ride like that.  I wonder if I could ever endure the training?  

 

As I stuff another candy piece into my mouth, reality hits.  Here I am, exercising as I eat candy.  Instead of making substantial strides towards physical fitness, I’m probably burning less calories than I am currently ingesting.  I begin pedaling with more fervor.  Is my exercising pointless?  Has the candy “undone” my efforts?  

 

While I push myself to pedal twice as fast to make up for the candy (still eyeing my favorite flavor of starburst), I can’t help but remember the Cathy comic strips and feel as though I’d make a better non-attending member of Cathy’s gym than a rider in le Tour de France.

December 30, 2008

Lighter Moments – Runover by a Matrix

Posted in Update at 6:54 pm by Sarah Bosse

Sung to the tune of “Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer”

Sarah got run over by a Matrix
Right there in her own drive way
Someone said they thought it was Photoshopped
But Sarah Barnes knows it happened that way

 

Runover

Runover

 

 

Hey, you will do whatever you have to do to make it work, right?!  My car is now pretty and clean.  Rain-X has been applied.  I just wish they made “bird-poop-X” because I know the car will get bombed in less than 48 hours – Murphy’s Law – happens every time.  

TGG

Lighter Moments – Runaway

Posted in Update at 3:32 pm by Sarah Bosse

I’ve decided to occasionally write down the funny things that happen when dealing with a mobility impairment.  If I can’t laugh at myself, then who can?  I bought a rolling walker at my church’s yard sale this past summer, thinking it might help me carry things when getting around the house and perhaps when shopping.  When using crutches, both hands are busy “walking” and when using a wheelchair, I’m unable to exercise my legs, so I like the idea of using a walker to get things done.  This walker and I have an avoidance-based relationship, however.  I took several hours to disassemble the walker, oil and clean it all up and put it back together.  The brakes don’t really work and there is no way to lock them.  But other than that, it rolls well and generally gets the job done.  I especially like the basket on the front.  

Our kitchen and house in general is a bit uneven.  The floors slope, which makes playing marbles very fun!  I was cooking in the kitchen this week and turned towards the counter, letting go of the walker entirely so I could assemble my gourmet masterpiece.  I was really getting into this cooking thing – the food smelled good and I was really hungry.  After a minute or two, I turn around, grabbing for my walker, nearly falling over as I reached for a stable object was no longer there!  My walker had the nerve to ride the slope in my kitchen and run away from me!  So there I was, stuck basically in the middle of the kitchen with my walker at the other end.  Oops.  

What did I do?  I started laughing.  I pointed my scolding finger at my walker and began talking to it, “You little scoundrel.  I knew you had a bad streak in you!  You just wait till I get over there and…!”  (When you’re home alone almost all day, you start talking to random objects.)  Well, it sure did have to WAIT till I made it over there because it took me a while!  But in the end, all was well and I had laughed myself silly for the day.

December 14, 2008

Either Four Legs or Four Wheels

Posted in Prayer Request, Update at 10:57 pm by Sarah Bosse

As my Good Lord has allowed, I am again required to use my crutches and wheelchair to get around.  I put a good ‘ol fracture in my left foot somehow – and no, I don’t know how I did it.  I’m very prone to fractures in my feet and get them several times a year.  I can often decrease activity to prevent them from getting worse.  But sometimes they become bad very quickly – even within a day – which is what happened to me earlier in the week.  As long as my right foot stays whole without fractures, I hope to be moving around better on two legs after about 2-3 months.  It all depends on the healing process and how well behaved I am (i.e. not walking on it!).  Please pray that God would give me a spirit of long-suffering and patience to help me obey.  Besides the foot pain and the difficulty in adjusting to different modes of locomotion (for those who don’t know, going from walking to full-time wheelchair/crutches puts a lot of stress on your hands, arms, shoulders, back, and body in general – it can be a pretty painful transition), I am actually doing quite well physically.  My back pain has been next to nothing, and the rest of me is holding up well.  I’m very grateful for this, as the Lord has allowed me to continue in the ministries He’s lovingly called me to.  Few ministries with which I’m involved specifically require walking, but energy, stamina and pain relief are necessary to some degree.  

THANK YOU to all who are praying!  I can’t tell you how much it means.  I trust the Lord in this trial, as I know that He is a good and loving God who delights to reward those who seek Him.  I’m clinging to the words from the previous post (Day By Day, And With Each Passing Moment).  May they be my heart’s cry.  In fact, may they be the cry of all His childrens’ hearts when trials come!

 

Day by day, and with each passing moment,

Strength I find to meet my trials here;

Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,

I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.

He, whose heart is kind beyond all measure,

Gives unto each day what He deems best,

Lovingly its part of pain and pleasure,

Mingling toil with peace and rest.

….

Help me then, in every tribulation,

So to trust Thy promises, O Lord,

That I lose not faith’s sweet consolation,

Offered me within Thy holy Word.

Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,

E’er to take, as from a father’s hand,

One by one, the days, the moments fleeting,

Till with Christ the Lord I stand.

November 26, 2008

What are YOU thankful for? Happy Thanksgiving

Posted in Devotionals, Update at 9:56 pm by Sarah Bosse

What are you thankful for this year?  Please post thankful notes in the comments section below this post so that God may be glorified and readers may be edified.  I’ll start:  

I’m grateful for (in no particular order)…

Salvation!

Physical healing

Changing seasons

Sovereign Grace Church in Apex, NC

The United States of America and our Freedom

Pumpkin pie (and good food in general)

Family and friends

Heating and air conditioning / climate control

Opportunities to be employed and work

Joy in the Lord

Music and art

American Sign Language (ASL)

God’s grace towards me and the grace I’ve received from other Believers

 

I am very excited to hear what you’re thankful for and I look forward to your responses!

TGG

November 21, 2008

God or Food…Food or God?

Posted in Devotionals, Prayer Request, Update at 4:58 am by Sarah Bosse

I’ve had one of those weeks where it’s been a tough uphill battle just to focus my mind on anything besides my insane schedule and taking care of my basic human needs (eating, sleeping, getting a shower before falling asleep regardless of location or position…).  Each day I have tried to have about 30-60 minutes of quiet time with just me and Father, and each day I’ve had major interruptions during all such attempts.  Each time, I’ve felt compelled to attend to those interruptions, each of which involved other people.  

How many times have I forgotten God this week?  Perhaps it’s easier to ask “how many times have I remembered God this week?”.  There is no profit in self-loathing over the issue.  The positive example of one saint who comes to mind should not be used as a yard stick by which to measure my own “goodness” (of which there is intrinsically none – any goodness is all a work of Christ in my life).  Instead, I wish to be encouraged by Johnathan Edwards’ example, as he demonstrates what a life focused on God can accomplish.  Johnathan Edwards’ yard stick was the life of Jesus Christ, to whom Johnathan Edwards’ own personal efforts could not compare.  My yard stick should also be Jesus Christ, to whom my efforts cannot compare.  I am most grateful that my efforts will never need to be compared with those of Christ, as I trust in the effectiveness of my Savior’s sinless life and perfect propitiation as the proof of my salvation.  God will continue the work Christ has started in me until its completion in the day of our Lord.  Yet by the empowerment of the Spirit, we press on, striving side by side for the faith and holiness.

In such light, I would like to share excerpts of a sermon by John Piper regarding the daily life of Johnathan Edwards and his devotion to studying the Scriptures.  

 

“Edwards could spend up to 13 hours a day in his study….He rose early, even for those nonelectrical days. In fact he probably was entirely serious when he wrote in his diary in 1728, “I think Christ has recommended rising early in the morning, by his rising from the grave very early.”

It’s not easy to know what his family life looked like under this kind of rigorous schedule. Dwight says in one place, “In the evening, he usually allowed himself a season of relaxation, in the midst of his family.” (Works, I, xxxviii) But in another place Edwards himself says (in 1734 when he was 31 years old), “I judge that it is best, when I am in a good frame for divine contemplation, or engaged in reading the Scriptures, or any study of divine subjects, that, ordinarily, I will not be interrupted by going to dinner, but will forego my dinner, rather than be broke off” (Works, I, xxxvi). ….

With regard to his eating habits, not only was he willing to skip dinner for the sake of his study if things were really flowing, he also, Dwight tells us, “carefully observed the effects of the different sorts of food, and selected those which best suited his constitution, and rendered him most fit for mental labour.” (Works, I, xxxviii) Edwards had set this pattern when he was 21 years old when he wrote in his diary,

By a sparingness in diet, and eating as much as may be what is light and easy of digestion, I shall doubtless be able to think more clearly, and shall gain time; 1. By lengthening out my life; 2. Shall need less time for digestion, after meals; 3. Shall be able to study more closely, without injury to my health; 4. Shall need less time for sleep; 5. Shall more seldom be troubled with the head-ache. (Works, I, xxxv)

 

God or Food?  (God IS Food.)

When I read of Edwards’ devotion to times of fellowship with the Lord, and his willingness to forego dinner, I considered Matthew 4:1-4:  Then Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. 2 And after fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. 3 And the tempter came and said to him, “If you are the Son of God, command these stones to become loaves of bread.” 4 But he answered, “It is written, “‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”

Jesus and Edwards lived by the Word of God.  They made it their aim to seek God’s will and plan for their days, hours, and moments.  More important to them was the feeding and nourishment of their spirits than the nourishment of their bodies.  And even the nourishment of the body pointed back to their original goal of nourishing the spirit and doing the will and work of God as He has ordained.  There are many things in my life that distract me from spending time with God and being nourished in my spirit.  Some days it is a to-do list.  Other days it’s the phone ringing.  Sometimes it’s poor planning, forgetfulness (which is often sinful), and/or laziness on my part.  

 

Struggling Against Sin to Seek God

Hebrews 12:Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 

I daily hear Satan’s imploring and self-pitying voice in my ear saying “You’re hungry.  Study later – it’s time to eat.  You’re tired – go take a nap.  It’s early – sleep a few more minutes so you can do your work to the glory of God and have quiet time later in the day.”  Rarely have I resisted to the point of skipping dinner, much less to the point of shedding blood that I might obey.  Consider Jesus in the garden.  As his disciples slept though He had asked them to keep watch and stay awake – the least they could have done for their Teacher and Lord – Jesus prayed against the temptation to sin, and His sweat was like drops of blood in His agony and grief.  

Matthew 26:36 Then Jesus went with them to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to his disciples, “Sit here, while I go over there and pray.” 37 And taking with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, he began to be sorrowful and troubled. 38 Then he said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death; remain here, and watch with me.” 39 And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” 40 And he came to the disciples and found them sleeping. And he said to Peter, “So, could you not watch with me one hour?41 Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” 42 Again, for the second time, he went away and prayed, “My Father, if this cannot pass unless I drink it, your will be done.” 43 And again he came and found them sleeping, for their eyes were heavy.44 So, leaving them again, he went away and prayed for the third time, saying the same words again.45 Then he came to the disciples and said to them, “Sleep and take your rest later on.  See, the hour is at hand, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. 46 Rise, let us be going; see, my betrayer is at hand.”

Luke 22:39 And he came out and went, as was his custom, to the Mount of Olives, and the disciples followed him. 40 And when he came to the place, he said to them, “Pray that you may not enter into temptation.”41 And he withdrew from them about a stone’s throw, and knelt down and prayed, 42 saying, “Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.” 43 And there appeared to him an angel from heaven, strengthening him. 44 And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly; and his sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground. 45 And when he rose from prayer, he came to the disciples and found them sleeping for sorrow, 46 and he said to them,“Why are you sleeping? Rise and pray that you may not enter into temptation.”

Whether the Lord actually sweat blood or not is not the point I wish to contend.  I do not know.  But I do know that His soul was “very sorrowful, even to death,” and in His human nature He wanted to avoid the unimaginable suffering – the furious wrath of God – that was about to be poured out upon Him as He became our sin.  God’s wrath was satisfied through the rejection that Jesus bore (followed by resurrection!) so that all whom the Father had given to the Son would only know the peace that such punnishment brought forth.  Yet even at this time, Jesus resisted the voice of Satan which told Him of the plausible means of escape and attempted to lure Jesus’ thoughts to His own desires and human needs.  I doubt that the trial of 40 days and nights in the desert was comparable to the pangs Jesus felt in the garden that night.  Yet He resisted still, never giving in to the temptation at hand to put service to Self before service to God.  

 

The Challenge

Philippians 3:Indeed, I count everything as loss [including dinner, sleep, etc.] because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— 10 that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death,11 that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead.

(Dear Lord, please help me to count all things as rubbish and nothing compared to knowing You more fully.  Help me to remember that the righteousness that saves me and makes me an adopted child of God did not come from within myself, but from Christ as a free gift.  Let me see the temptation to trust in myself and flee from it, turning and running headlong towards the shadow of the Cross!  Give me more faith in the power of Christ’s resurrection and help me to endure the sufferings appointed for me so that the Gospel may go forth and be heard.  Help me die to myself, to my own selfish desires and the temptations that play on my sinful flesh.  I want to die to myself so that Christ may rise up in me and I may be set free from bondage to sin and death, raised up in newness of life to the glory of God.)

12 Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. 13 Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. 15 Let those of us who are mature think this way, and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal that also to you. 16 Only let us hold true to what we have attained.

(I want to press on in godliness and holiness, in becoming increasingly more like Christ.  I know the sins of the past, and I thank You for Your forgiveness of those sins, Lord.  Because Your Spirit enables me to turn away from sin (posse non picarre), I look forward and trust Your strength to be sufficient for me to seek You rather than my own desires.  Hebrews 11:6 And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.)

17 Brothers, join in imitating me, and keep your eyes on those who walk according to the example you have in us. 18 For many, of whom I have often told you and now tell you even with tears, walk as enemies of the cross of Christ. 19 Their end is destruction, their god is their belly, and they glory in their shame, with minds set on earthly things. 20 But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21 who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power that enables him even to subject all things to himself.

(Thank You, Lord, for the godly people who live as examples to us of how we should walk in Your ways.  You have given us these examples in Your Word and in history and in our daily lives and churches.  Help us to be encouraged by their lives and how they live to see Your Kingdom come, and keep our hearts from comparing our lives with theirs in a way that wrongly “justifies” our sin because we compare ourselves with other sinful humans.  Instead, cause us to see the perfections of Christ and to seek to model His perfections through the Spirit.  Please keep us from destruction – let us not be those who serve our own desires and make temporal things our gods and the objects of our affections and thoughts.  Cause us to hunger for heaven and desire to serve God without sin.)

TGG

November 11, 2008

Employment Update

Posted in Prayer Request, Update at 1:52 pm by Sarah Bosse

I have great news to share with all those who have been praying.  I have accepted a Part-Time long-term Temp position in Cary, NC.  I will be working at a construction company, in their headquarters office, as a receptionist and jack of all trades.  The position is Monday-Friday, 1pm-5pm.  I am so grateful to God for His provision in this, as I have been praying for a temp job to carry me through the end of this year and the holidays.  It looks like this job will do just that.  So thank you again for your prayers, and keep praying!  

TGG

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